Tuesday, June 22, 2010

True Confessions

No bull....isn't that what that symbol means? Well, no bull here. It has been a long time since I've confessed here and it's not pretty at all. They say confession is good for the soul, so we'll see if that is true. I am embarrassed to tell you that.....
1. I used to be a smoker. I quit quite a few years ago, but I didn't really quit. If we were out with friends in a bar and I'd have a few drinks, I'd bum a few off whoever was smoking at our table. Smoking was also my crutch when I was angry or upset. I could go weeks and not smoke, but if I'd have what I considered a crisis of sorts, I'd buy a pack. Maybe I'd smoke three, maybe I'd smoke the whole pack, but after that day, I'd throw the pack away. Then, I would go about my business and not smoke. Now, here is the good news. I haven't had a cigarette in seven months and I don't want one at all. I am confident that I will never smoke again. So, how do I handle my mini crisises now? You guessed it...food. Now here is the really bad news. My taste buds are like brand new not being dulled by smoking. If you have never smoked, you have no idea how good things taste when you have quit for a while.
2. The last month of school kicked my butt and then I got roped into teaching summer school. I didn't exercise for way too long. I was exhausted most days and could barely drag my butt out of bed in time to get to school. I had something going on almost every night. I had no time to myself. Here is the vicious circle....I was exhausted because my metabolism was shot from not exercising, but I was too exhausted to take any little bit of time I had to exercise.
3. My food choices have been pretty much crap. We ate out way to many times. Worst case example of late night snacking in one night...a three inch stack of mexican layered Pringles, a bowl of caramel praline crunch ice cream and a half a chocolate donut. Oh my God, who the hell eats that in one night?????
4. My body has pretty much gone to mushy, flabby and gross.
Now comes the good part of this sad confession.
1. I am done with school now and I have started back with exercising this week. I'm walking first thing in the morning no less than five days a week with a good friend and we do no less than three miles and are going to work our way up to at least five miles a day. I come home for that and do some form of exercise. Yesterday I did the kettlebell workout and today I did a Biggest Loser workout on the wii. Just a bit of info for you all...don't start your kettlebell workouts with an eight pound bell. It works fine for the below the waist stuff, but I almost knocked myself out trying to swing that sucker up over my head and control it for upper body work. I did it, but it was touch and go a few times.
2. I've been thinking about joining Weight Watchers for a few weeks. After some feedback from some people I trust last night, I am going to do it. Today is the day that I join Weight Watchers online. As soon as I post this, I'm heading over to their website. If any of you are doing Weight Watchers, please leave me some feedback about how you like it. I'm a little worried about how the points thing works, but I'm sure it will all come together.
So, that's it. The good, the bad and the ugly. Yesterday I started with a clean slate. I'm not proud or happy about the other stuff, but I can only start over and do my best. I'm not going to waste time beating myself up over it. Hey, at least I'm not smoking and I have to give myself credit for that.
Lastly, I confess that if you go to the post under this one, I have a giveaway going on. It's for a $40. gift certificate, if you'd like to check it out.
Once again, Blogger is messing with me and won't let me make paragraphs. Sorry!


  1. oh caramel praline crunch...now that sounds good! Good for you for getting your walking in the am...its been soo dang humid! Hope you like WW online, i love tracking stuff online better then on paper....seems easier!


    I just sent you my long email on WW! I'm happy to see that you are doing it, and clearly you have tons of support and knowledgeable friends to help, also. How awesome.

    Regarding your confessions. I believe it's good to get things off your chest....but now --- FORGETABOUTIT. Move forward. It's a new day, no sense feeling bad or guilty.

    Embrace and love WW. I know you will....and thanks for a great post :)

  3. Ice cream is my kryptonite. I can't even leave it in the house.

    I'm glad your school year has finally come to an end and you are able to get back on track. I hope you like WW. I really need to start tracking my intake again. I fear I'm getting lazy. I did WW for many years and simply burned out on it. Now I track at dailyplate (livestrong dot com). They have an iPhone app that is very user friendly.

    Good luck!

  4. You will not regret joining weight watchers. I never did the online version, but I would go to the meetings. I lost 40lbs in 2002. Of course, I have gained it all back, plus some, but that's a different story! Good luck!

  5. Doesn't sound that bad, I especially like that you've started exercising again . I've always wanted to try kettle bells.

  6. Like you say, the good news is that today is another day. Walking 3 - 5 miles per day, 5 days per week, is awesome. I know I've told you this before, but the only way I will stick to a program is if I have something to work toward. Right now it's the Half Iron. This has been challenging, to say the least. But it keeps me going. I really can't miss a day or I'm totally screwed. Fitting swimming, biking and running in has been crazy... so I have to get it in when I can. When I don't feel like doing it, I think of people who CAN'T do it. Then I feel blessed and lucky. Once I'm out, I feel good about it. Of course I'm thinking of all the things i have to do at home or for everyone else, but I try to push that out of my head and just enjoy the day or the scenery. 2.5 more weeks. I am very, very scared. But I'm gonna do it if I have to crawl. I know you are embracing your NEW DAY and will be kicking butt out there every day. You are a very strong woman and the most honest one I know. You have always been an inspiration to me... and I can just picture you tossing around those kettlebells!! Ouch!! (I did Weight Watchers after Jane was born, and I lost the baby weight and kept it off. I LOVED WW).

  7. Hang in there and you can get back into your exercise/eating regimen. I know how hard it is go fall off the wagon. I am proud of you for quitting up smoking. That is great! I think WW is probably one of the best ways to lose weight. Love & blessings from NC!

  8. I just posted my confessions over at the Sisterhood on the comments. i was too embarrassed to post them to my blog! Pringles must be from the Devil!! Only I ate the WHOLE.STINKIN'.CAN!!

  9. I just wrote you a long reply and blogger totally messed up....Will write you tomorrow....Thanks for the sweet comment....and I have tons of WW experience.

  10. This is exactly why I love you so much my friend! You are honest to the core. Giving up smoking is a HUGE deal. I am so proud of you for that. I never smoked but admire people who can quit. Weight Watcher's is the best program I was ever on and I loved the point system when I first joined. I lost over 50 lbs going to the meetings and sticking to the program. Sad to say I put back about 40 of that, but I'm not knocking the program. I should get back on it cause I know it works. You are on the right path now and that's all that matters. You are not a quitter, you just took a vacation from it.

  11. Nancy, good for you.
    Weight Watchers is the best! (especially the first time you do it, I think.) Amy told me when I started it long ago that if you follow the points, you will lose weight. And she was right.
    I know you'll be successful in your weight loss efforts because nothing works like WW and exercise and you've got such a well rounded exercise program worked out. You'll do awesome (and I'll be a little jealous).
    But, as always, I'm so proud of you!

  12. Good for you for quitting smoking! I've never smoked, but I've always heard how hard it is to quit.

    I've been a bad girl too with my eating. Now that the wedding is over, I need to get back to eating right and exercising.


  13. I joined WW 5 weeks ago. I love the online tracking. I am going to the meetings for a another month then changing to just online as that helps me more then anything:) Good luck!!!


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