I'm having one of those days. Maybe it's one of those weeks. It is actually one of those summers.
Most of the time, I don't mind at all.
But sometimes, I do.
It's summer. It's my vacation from work.
It's almost August and I'm still waiting to start having some fun.
I know that I bring a lot of it on myself by offering to help people.
It's just how I am. It's how we were raised.
You help others.
I go to things thinking they are going to be fun and then people are whining and complaining.
Just like I am now. I admit it.
But if I can't vent on my own blog, where can I?
I try to be positive. I try not to complain to my husband or family.
I do have one wonderful friend that I walk with in the morning. She is my therapist and I am hers. That helps so much.
How fast we walk depends on how angry or upset we are at something. Those are some of our best workouts. When we are laughing and joking, we are just strolling along.
It's kind of funny actually. We talk, we cry, we bitch, we laugh and we feel better.
There isn't an emotion we haven't covered in that three and a half miles in the morning.
Don't get me wrong. I love my life. I have a family of 34 people now. We get together fairly regularly. The kids have so much fun together. I love to watch them.
My own little family unit of 13 is awesome.
I love them with all my heart.
I have the best friends ever.
But, one day I'd just like to spend some time sitting in my yard with a good book and looking at my flowers without the phone ringing or a car pulling up or someone coming out from the house wanting a piece of me.
Oh I know. I have a friend that always says *A mom is never off the birthing table*!! And it is so true! I love to do for others but occasionally I just want some down time. I can SO relate! Here's to a simple, quiet day!
ReplyDeletei hear ya! I have days like that too! Make it happen Nancy! Send yourself an invitation... and RSVP right away!! Have a good weekend!
ReplyDeleteThis left me taking a deep breath and letting out a huge sigh. I hear you.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find a little time for yourself before school starts back up.
(and I love those pictures... gorgeous!)
Rant on sister friend! We've all been there I'm sure. I know I have. Hopefully, this is just a phase and you'll move on to a more enjoyable slower pace soon.
ReplyDeleteHappy weekend!
Hugs,
Kat
I am so with you!! I am glad you have a friend to "get it out" with because that can make ALL the difference!
ReplyDeleteI sure hope August brings you some YOU time!
I know what you mean Nancy. I have sure learned how to say "NO". Just like you said, you need time to yourself. I love to do for others, but there has to be a happy medium. Hope you have a nice, restful weekend. Love & blessings from NC!
ReplyDeleteYou're absolutely justified! It's what I love about retirement - no obligations. But believe it or not, there are very few days where there's not something I'm obliged to attend to. That's okay. For me, there's always another day. I hope you get your completely free days soon and often before school starts again.
ReplyDeleteI understand where you are coming from :o) Although my hubby and I are far from family (wah...I could so whine about that! but will refrain :o)....I am the same when it comes to saying "no"...it is so hard to do for me too. So, it is so easy to get busy and the day ends before you realize it! (Work tends to take Lots of "pieces of me"...another place to easily insert my whining!).
ReplyDeleteOh...what about a week or weekend get-a-way with just you and your hubby?
Oh Nancy...it's good that you have your morning walks :o) And dear girl...you are someone that any one and everyone would want to spend time with and do fun stuff with!
Blessings & Aloha!
(hubby and son are sleeping, so trying to finally get some blog reading done, visit and reply to comments left on my past two posts!)
Nancy... this weekend, I THOUGHT, was going to be a nothing kind of weekend. No plans. Just wind along until something jumped out to do. Maybe a book. A movie. Lunch. Then Barry hit me with tickets to a Red Sox game today and a BIG event tomorrow. Obligations with friends. I said NO WAY. But I HAVE to. I know I HAVE to but I DON'T WANT TO. And my poison oak has spread and my left arm is miserably sore and awful. I feel your pain, my friend. But it's who we are, I guess. I hope you get to sit and read today... for all of us!!!! Much love!!!!
ReplyDeleteI hear you LOUD and clear dear friend. You might just have to stow away to a place where no one can find you for a while or at least until you finish that book. You, Mary and I still need to go on the Riverwalk soon...before school starts. It's great to have a friend that you can vent to and I'm glad for you to have that walking buddy in the mornings to lend that ear.
ReplyDeleteVent away Nancy, we all need an outlet and this is yours. No judging, just listening. Glad you stopped to smell the flowers...they look beautiful!
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