There has been one thought going round and round in my head for several weeks now. I keep thinking about what I thought blogging would be. I guess I should say what I hoped it would be.
Three years ago, I kind of backed into blogging with a little prodding from a friend. She said if I didn't like it, I could just delete it. Deleting it has never crossed my mind since I started until maybe now.
I was amazed by the friends I have made by blogging. People from all corners of the country and even out of the country. It has been an awesome journey that I truly love. I can't imagine my life without it.
But...when I started blogging, I thought that it was going to be my place to speak freely about me and my life and my thoughts. It was for awhile. Then, it started to change.
I didn't go out and tell lots of people that I was blogging. It was my thing, not theirs. But, people found out. They began to scrutinize what I was writing and it became not so much mine anymore.
I have come to the point in my writing where I feel like I have to censor my thoughts and hold back what I am thinking. It wasn't supposed to be like this. Now, I find myself wondering what I should do. More and more, I'm not writing here. I spend more time on Facebook and my picture blog.
The thought of not writing on this blog breaks my heart, but the thought of writing trivial junk isn't the answer either. I need to find an answer.
This was my first entry in Just Write. I hope this is what it was supposed to be. I did "just write".
